I heard you still love her

Chapter 24

— She is giving you the thumbs up.

How did Gao Yu know that his goddess could be so deceiving? He got his understanding of Yan Zhilan from Xiao Ruoyan. In his mind, Yan Zhilan had always been the kind who was wearing a white gauze, standing under the moonlight, light and not eating. The fairy type of fireworks on earth.

He lowered his voice and continued: "Her house, all these years, except that I went in with a stern face, and even Mr. Xu wanted to go up to drink tea, but she didn't agree."

Yan Zhilan was startled when she heard that, she looked at Gao Yu, Gao Yu winked at Xiao Ruoyan who was in the distance, "Her room is full of your paintings."

Xiao Ruoyan was probably the kind of person that people said was born for art.

Other people's leisure and entertainment are watching TV and swiping their mobile phones. In addition to music, she draws pictures.

Her room is full of Yan Zhilan, the way she smiles, the way she frowns, the way she winks mischievously, the way she plays the piano...

At that time Gao Yu didn't understand, "Why do you make so many paintings?"

Xiao Ruoyan said lightly: "Most of the photos from my student days were destroyed by my mother."

Gao Yu was very upset when he heard it. He had seen Xiao Ruoyan's painting of Yan Zhilan, and he was very focused. Sometimes, he would drag a glass of wine in his hand, and most of the time, he would hold a cigarette between his fingers.

When she painted her, she was not so cold, her eyes were gentle, and her expression was focused.

Many times, when she finished drawing a picture, she turned around with tears streaming down her face.

Moreover, there is a very large painting in her bedroom. Xiao Ruoyan usually covers it with a canvas. Being gay is basically the same as a woman's sixth sense. Gao Yu feels that the painting must be super taboo. Of course, Even if he had a hundred guts, he wouldn't dare to touch it.

……

Yan Zhilan's eye circles were red, she bit her lip and glanced at Xiao Ruoyan, Xiao Ruoyan was not nearsighted, she was afraid that Gao Yu's mouth might not be able to catch the door: "Hurry up and rest for a while, don't you want to sit in the car for a long time?" Tired?"

Gao Yu pulled his neck: "I'm not tired!"

Xiao Ruoyan sneered, she unceremoniously picked up Gao Yu's lipstick on the table, and asked him, "Can you see what this is?"

Gao Yu nodded, and looked at Xiao Ruoyan with the eyes of a fool, he is not stupid, isn't this the lipstick he just used as an example of not being hard on women?

A cold light flickered in Xiao Ruoyan's eyes, she unscrewed the lipstick, and under Gao Yu's watchful eye, she mercilessly exerted force on her hand.

"Snap" the lipstick broke.

Gao Yu's hair was about to stand on end, Xiao Ruoyan looked at him, and continued to ask: "Are you tired?"

Gao Yu hugged himself tightly, "Damn it, I'm so tired, I'm so tired, Goddess, goodbye, we'll talk tomorrow."

Yan Zhilan: ...

Gao Yu was ready to go into the house to rest in desperation.

He still kept a small head secretly, squinting at the two of them.

In the beginning, he and Xiao Ruoyan met because of their work relationship. Don't look at Gao Yu's foolishness, he can write lyrics that are more delicate than women. Xiao Ruoyan will cooperate with him occasionally, and they get acquainted with each other.

In Gao Yu's eyes, Xiao Ruoyan has always been cold and ungrounded. It can be said that she is a bit of a lonely geek. No one can walk into her heart. She also works normally, and she doesn't talk much. That's right, but someone inexplicably wants to get close to her.

Xiao Ruoyan watched the person leave, and waved at Xiaoyan directly. Xiaoyan walked over, and she hugged him, "You like him?"

Yan Zhilan smiled, and poked Xiao Ruoyan's nose with her hand: "Be careful."

Xiao Ruoyan raised her eyebrows, with Yan Zhilan's shadow in her dark eyes, "Why are you blushing while chatting?"

Yan Zhilan didn't say a word, she bit her lip, put her arms around Xiao Ruoyan's waist, and leaned against her quietly.

It's been ten years.

Only her, only her.

Empathize with her loneliness.

Xiao Ruoyan hugged her quietly, lowering the tip of her nose from time to time, rubbing her nose lightly.

That kind of temperature transmission, that kind of breath lingering, is the most soothing.

Gao Yu looked a little amazed, sometimes women are really different from men, if it is him and his honey, after all the hardships, and finally being together, it is definitely a firewood, and it will grow up every day without doing anything On the bed, seeing them like this, I feel sweet, happy and beautiful for no reason.

in the afternoon.

Xiao Ruoyan coaxed Yan Zhilan to take a nap, and Yan Zhilan fell asleep in her arms.

Xiaoyan didn't know what was in her dream, she gently grabbed Xiao Ruoyan's clothes with her fingers, and murmured uneasy, "Don't do this, don't do this..."

Xiao Ruoyan hugged her tightly, and hugged her hard for a while, until Yan Zhilan calmed down, she took out the medicine bottle from the drawer next to her, and looked at it thoughtfully for a long time.

When she came out of the living room, Gao Yu was sitting on the floor of the bedroom, doing yoga with his waist down. He glanced at Xiao Ruoyan: "Honey, what do you think of me? Is it soft? Is there something special that makes Meng 1 want to flood?" Feel like being bullied?"

Xiao Ruoyan glanced at him up and down, and he didn't know where he got a particularly flirty vest, which looked like a lady's suspenders, "Be careful, Xiaoyan is still at home."

The two of them used to be able to do whatever they wanted with Gao Yu, but now that Xiaoyan is here, he can't let him see this hot-eyed scene.

"Come on." Gao Yu rolled his eyes directly, "It's because of you that we have the illusion that yours is so cold and ungrounded. Now look, the goddess is more popular than you Many, gentle and considerate."

After all, Xiao Ruoyan is an entertainment company over there, and she is quite open about things like sexual orientation. In private, she has never concealed it from some close friends, including Mr. Xu.

Gao Yu looked at her, leaned his arms forward, and pressed his body almost 180 degrees on the ground, "Ruoyan, have you made up your mind? Have you really decided?"

He is used to being a prodigal, and Xiao Ruoyan was not used to being such a dog for a while.

Gao Yu let out a sigh of relief. He really knows how to take care of himself better than women, "You've been there for almost ten years. If you say you don't want the country that you beat down with your bare hands, don't you? Isn't there a compromise? During the gathering, they also said that the boss at the headquarters intends to set up a youth promotion plan, and you are a very important person to pay attention to."

Xiao Ruoyan didn't say anything, she looked at her watch.

Gao Yu continued: "I look at my goddess. Although the house is not big and she doesn't dress in an exaggerated way, her words, her behavior, and her temperament all show that her family background must be the same. She is a rich second generation. Bar?"

Xiao Ruoyan's eyelids twitched, and Gao Yu knew that he had hit the mark, "You really have to think about it, you have established such a good network and future after ten years of hard work over there, once you come back and start from scratch, give The leader serves tea and pours water as a pug, can you bear it? If you feel unbalanced in the future, you--"

"Gao Yu."

Xiao Ruoyan's face was covered with frost, Gao Yu immediately sat up straight: "The humble job is here!"

Xiao Ruoyan: "Did I ask you to be a kingfisher? You go downstairs now and go buy vegetables for me."

Gao Yu scratched his neck and looked into the kitchen, "Why? I see a lot of vegetables on the ground."

Xiao Ruoyan was extremely cold, "Because I'm going downstairs to meet someone now, I don't worry about you being in the same room as my woman."

Gao Yu covered his heart with one hand, "Well, this cruel life..."

Gao Yu was carried down by Xiao Ruoyan.

Before leaving, Xiao Ruoyan wrote a note to Xiaoyan, tucked her in the quilt, and kissed her forehead.

Xiaoyan's sleeping time is very irregular now, and the cycle is also long, based on one hour, but Xiao Ruoyan is not at ease, fearing that she will not find herself when she wakes up, so she wrote a note to her.

Gao Yu's teeth were gritty, he straightened his coat: "I really didn't expect that Director Xiao has such an affectionate side."

Xiao Ruoyan raised her eyebrows: "I warn you, don't pollute my woman with the yellow color of your brain."

"Yo, open your mouth and shut up, you're a woman, why did you call you a woman? Did you sleep with someone?" Gao Yu hummed unwillingly, and Xiao Ruoyan closed the door lightly, "Did you not look at the one in her hand?" A ring?"

Gao Yu was stunned for a moment, Xiao Ruoyan tilted his head, and said seriously: "I will marry her after the handover over there is over and everything here is stable."

Such a sentence, she said lightly, seemed to be talking about the daily weather.

Gao Yu was taken aback. He had been with his family for so many years, but he never said in such a firm tone that he wanted to marry him.

Xiao Ruoyan and Gao Yu still have a tacit understanding, she watched this grinning man's eyes turn red when she said a word, she patted Gao Yu's shoulder, "She eats for me I have suffered a lot, and in this life, I cannot bear her."

Xiao Ruoyan looked so handsome when he got serious, Gao Yu covered his face, and said nympho: "It's over, it's over, you have to straighten me."

Xiao Ruoyan: ...

The weather is not bad today.

Xiao Ruoyan came down in such a hurry because he made an appointment with Xu Xiaohe, the psychiatrist that the boss was looking for.

Arrived at the agreed coffee shop.

Xu Xiaohe was already waiting there. She was very familiar with Zhang Wei and knew something about the two girls. She was sitting there, holding a coffee cup in her hand and looking at Xiao Ruoyan with a smile.

Xiao Ruoyan was somewhat surprised when he saw her, what a beautiful psychologist.

In her impression, a general psychiatrist would be a very old uncle or aunt, and this was the first time she had seen such a young one.

Xu Xiaohe wore a very professional dress, her hair was neatly coiled up, her eyes were firm, she looked like a big woman.

Xiao Ruoyan nodded slightly, "Sister, hello, Zhang Wei introduced me."

"I know, Ruoyan, right? Sit down, I heard from Weiwei that you like to drink passion fruit, so I ordered a cup for you first."

Xu Xiaohe looked into her eyes: "This can save time."

Xiao Ruoyan's heart moved for a moment, she is very good at reading people's hearts, she is really anxious, now she has a feeling about Xiaoyan, she doesn't know whether she can't do without Xiaoyan or Xiaoyan can't do without her, one point I don't want to be apart for a second.

The afternoon sun was just right.

Xu Xiaohe is a woman who knows how to listen very well. She tilted her head and listened carefully to what Xiao Ruoyan said about Yan Zhilan, including when she fell asleep, she would cry inexplicably, and sometimes she would laugh foolishly and Sometimes, she would frown forbearance, with such a rich expression, it was as if she was living with someone else in a dream.

She spoke in detail for half an hour.

Xu Xiaohe interrupted almost every sentence, but nodded from time to time. In the end, she met Xiao Ruoyan's anxious eyes and smiled slightly: "I once had a friend who was like this."

She calls all those who need help in psychological aspects she has received as friends, and does not like to call them patients.

From Dr. Xu's point of view, they seem to have lost their way for a while and just need someone to push them.

Xiao Ruoyan was very serious, her hands even clenched the teacup a little nervously, Xu Xiaohe's voice was soft and soft: "The other party is an aunt in her 50s, when she was 40 years old, her wife died in a car accident, after that For more than ten years, she lived alone and drove away all the children who wanted to accompany her, until she accidentally fell down and was hospitalized and was discharged, because her legs and feet were inconvenient, the eldest daughter accompanied her and discovered the abnormality."

She looked at Xiao Ruoyan: "That aunt's situation is very similar to Xiaoyan's, except that she is not so dependent on drugs and leaves early due to physical reasons. She usually goes out for a walk every morning to exercise, and sleeps for a long time. She When my daughter first discovered sleeping pills, she thought it was because her mother could not fall asleep occasionally, so she carefully calculated the dosage, and after a week, she was shocked to find that her mother was taking it every day."

"Later, Auntie came over amidst the children's repeated pleadings. I chatted with her for a long time. Later, I also underwent hypnosis treatment. I walked into her dream and found that she—" Xu Xiaohe's eyes changed, Xiao Ruo Yan's heart followed suit.

"It turns out that for so many years, she never thought that her wife had left her. In her dreams, she and she have always lived together in such a loving way."

……

that moment.

Xiao Ruoyan's hands were cold, and she didn't know what to say.

Xu Xiaohe: "I think Xiaoyan is very likely to be the same. She doesn't want to forget you, and she has no way to see you. The reality is too tragic. She is powerless to resist, so she can only look for the illusory you in her dreams to make up for the vacancy in her heart. .”

Xiao Ruoyan murmured: "But I'm back."

Xu Xiaohe explained patiently: "People are 24 hours a day, and many people spend half of their time sleeping. Think about it, Ruoyan, in your dreams, have you ever dreamed about Xiaoyan? Is it true? Don’t you want to wake up from the dream? Even sometimes, when you wake up suddenly due to external stimuli, the alarm clock or someone else’s call, for a moment, do you feel confused and don’t know if it’s in reality or in a dream?”

Xiao Ruoyan's eyes were a little empty.

Yes, Dr. Xu said every word into her heart.

"You are back, but she is still there in the dream, and she will be reluctant."

"Now you can naturally say that she in the dream is a hallucination, and you want Xiaoyan to wake up quickly, but if you look at it from another angle, why doesn't she think you are fake? In a sense, you are the one who broke through into their third party."

……

Xu Xiaohe took a sip of coffee: "From what you and Weiwei have introduced to me, the dosage of Xiaoyan's medicine is not small, and the time span is too long. Although I know that you may not be able to accept it for a while, you still have to use a Face it with a gentle attitude, try not to irritate her, the days to come will be long, don't let her feel that you are disgusted by you, then for her, the sky will fall, and she may be more likely to seek The warmth in the dream, of course, in reality, you should not love too carefully, and be careful not to lose to the self in the dream. As for the follow-up, when you come back, I will meet her to know what to do."

……

Come out of the cafe.

Xiao Ruoyan was like a dream.

At the door, Gao Yu snatched the boss's guitar, unbuttoned his shirt, pretended to be cool and played and sang happily. Seeing Xiao Ruoyan's straight eyes, he hurried over: "What's wrong, this What's wrong?"

Xiao Ruoyan was a little confused. After a long time, she looked at Gao Yu slowly and asked softly, "Gao Yu, do you dream of your boyfriend?"

Gao Yu nodded, "Of course, I miss him so much and never see him again. I dream about it almost every two days."

Xiao Ruoyan murmured: "Then why do you always dream about him?"

She couldn't figure it out.

Is it because she is not good enough in reality, that's why Xiaoyan is immersed in the "her" in her dream?

She never thought that one day, she would eat her own jealousy.

Gao Yu returned the guitar to the boss, "I have everything, daily life, student days, and sometimes there will be pictures of us living together in the future."

What's wrong with her?

Xiao Ruoyan stared at him: "Where is the most frequent dream?"

She wanted to show Xiaoyan that she in reality was a thousand times stronger than the one in her dream.

Gao Yu was very frank. He hooked Xiao Ruoyan's shoulders with his long arms and raised his eyebrows: "What are you dreaming about? Needless to say? Of course it's crazy sex. Love, various postures, time and time again, are more vivid than reality. feel!"

Xiao Ruoyan's face turned blue: "...you can shut up now."

Until I entered the house.

Xiao Ruoyan still kept a distance from Gao Yu, a sperm-brained person.

Yan Zhilan woke up and put on her apron to cook noodles, "Are you back? Let's have spaghetti Bolognese tonight?"

Gao Yumei was about to jump up, "Wow, Goddess, how do you know that is my favorite?"

Xiao Ruoyan snorted coldly, and was about to speak when he caught sight of the fingertips left by Lan Lan on the table. That little bastard Lan Lan sent a message to tell her to leave seven for her.

How come there are only six of them?

Xiao Ruoyan looked at Gao Yu in disbelief: "Gao Yu, you cheap man, aren't you? You even stole finger cots?"

Her voice was a bit loud, and Xiaoyan from the kitchen came out.

Gao Yu is usually quite a joking person, and others want to laugh when they say anything, but now, his handsome face flushes red after hearing Xiao Ruoyan's words, which is a great shame: "F*ck!!! Xiao Ruoyan, Don't insult me, I'm not that thin!"

Xiao Ruoyan: ……………

Seeing that the face of being bullied turned red, Yan Zhilan coughed: "It's not him."

That is?

Xiao Ruoyan looked at Yan Zhilan instantly, Yan Zhilan tilted her head, a little embarrassed, "I took one."

Yes.

In her dream, she dreamed that Xiao Ruoyan, who was very physically strong except chopping firewood and carrying water, was pestering her.

After she woke up, she felt a little uncomfortable, and taking a bath didn't relieve it, so she took one.

Normally, Xiao Ruoyan might understand this, but now, she is so simple, her jealousy made her face redder than Gao Yu, and she grabbed Xiaoyan's wrist, "Come in, I have something to say to you explain."

Xiaoyan glanced at the pasta, and Gao Yu waved his hands happily: "Go, go, I can eat all of these by myself."

Xiaoyan: ...

What's going on here?

Yan Zhilan was taken into the room by Xiao Ruoyan's forceful "semi-coercion" in a daze.

With a bang, the door was slammed shut, Yan Zhilan was taken aback, Xiao Ruoyan locked it with a "crack", her mind was full of Dr. Xu's words.

——In reality, don’t love too carefully, be careful not to lose to the self in your dream.

There was fire in Xiao Ruoyan's eyes, she unbuttoned her collar with one hand, and said coldly, "I wanted to be concerned about your body."

Yan Zhilan blushed immediately when she saw her unbuttoning.

What?

There are people outside the door.

Xiao Ruoyan approached her step by step, "It seems that I am too naive to give that bastard vixen a chance in my dream."

Although it is an illusion.

But so much love.

When Xiao Ruoyan imagined that in her dream, Xiaoyan would have various poses and passions with the person who was wearing her shell but was not her at all, as Gao Yu said, she was about to collapse.

Xiaoyan is her girl.

She is alone.

Xiao Ruoyan pulled Yan Zhilan over, this time there was no ink stain, and she was pressed directly onto the big bed, Yan Zhilan lifted her body, she struggled to look into Xiao Ruoyan's eyes: "Ayan, you—"

Xiao Ruoyan licked his lips, with evil fire in his eyes: "I want to show you who is the best."

The author has something to say: It's a bit late, so Ye Zi will put it up first, and I will correct the typo later.

JJ is very clean, so don't expect too much.

Light it up, Ye Zi said, the update time is not fixed, everyone don't come here at ten o'clock pitifully like a watchman, just refresh once in a while.