I heard you still love her

Chapter 78

The cold rain was falling, Xiao Ruoyan hugged herself tightly, she really shrunk down again and again.

Lanlan looked at her sympathetically, it's over, brother-in-law, it seems that your abstinence plan has failed tonight, and you will start to enjoy the nourishment of love all night again.

My sister's attitude has also changed. Before, she didn't understand why her sister was so possessive of Xiao Ruoyan, but she gradually understood after she had Lanlan.

There is no reason to base love on this thing.

Just love her, no amount of love is enough, I want her eyes to stay on me forever.

Seeing her looking at others will involuntarily get angry, there is no reason.

A little domineering and strong.

"Hey, hello?" Xu Nian who threw her daughter into the fire pit herself didn't know it, she asked suspiciously, "Ruoyan, what's wrong?"

Xiao Ruoyan had already become dumb from fright, Xiaoyan looked into her eyes and answered the phone, her tone was soft: "Auntie, it's me, Xiaoyan."

Now, it was Xu Nian's turn to be frightened into a fool.

Xiaoyan's voice was so gentle, "Thank you, Auntie, for giving me the clues. You should have a good rest. Ah Yan and I will go back to see you in a few days."

Xu Nian: ...

God, what did she do? ? ?

I don't know what I did.

Anyway, as soon as Xiao Ruoyan and Xiaoyan got home, they were pushed down on the bed by Xiaoyan and kissed.

There was a touch of domineering in that kiss.

Xiao Ruoyan's face was like a peach blossom, her long hair was flung on the big snow-white bed like silk, her face was full of pampering and helplessness.

Finally, Xiaoyan leaned on her neck angrily, and said softly, "You are mine."

Xiao Ruoyan nodded, "I know, you don't really believe what mother said."

Xiaoyan snorted coldly, she played with Ah Yan's long hair with one hand, "I know I shouldn't be angry, but I'm just a little angry, Ah Yan, you can't fall in love with others."

Xiao Ruoyan hugged her tightly, and said softly, "I know."

After all, people still have anxiety and anxiety in their hearts.

Xiaoyan leaned on her and said softly: "Actually, before I met you, I didn't know that love could kill people like this. Ah Yan, without you, I really don't know what I would do."

Sometimes, Xiaoyan knew that it was not good for her to be so possessive, and she even felt that she would be a little "sick", which would make Ah Yan afraid.

But she can't help it.

Ah Yan in the dream had already been chased away by her.

If she also disappears after seeing the truth.

Then what should she do.

Xiaoyan held Xiao Ruoyan's chin and looked down at her eyes. She couldn't get enough of her eyes. After a while, she lowered her head and rubbed the tip of her nose gently, feeling from the bottom of her heart: "It's true!" I love you so much."

Xiao Ruoyan smiled, hugged her neck, and gave back gently, "I know."

She knows, this sentence has been said since the two of them confirmed their relationship.

I remember, after the kiss in Hainan, when I went back, everything was different.

What I look forward to most is turning off the lights in the dormitory every night, that little happiness.

As a girl, Xiao Ruoyan never knew that, as a girl, she could be so gentle and charming.

Xiaoyan will lie on her body, wrap around her, twist her, and whisper the most beautiful love words in the world in her ear: "Ayan, you are mine now."

Xiao Ruoyan loved to blush when she was a teenager, but she was very pale, which was very obvious.

Xiaoyan loves to see how she dodges and enjoys, kisses, hugs, and relies on her. The two girls are both fragrant, with long hair entangled, and they have spent the best time.

Her love for herself.

Xiao Ruoyan knew it all, and her attitude today was also very sincere, trying to be frank and lenient, Xiaoyan looked into her eyes: "You all know."

Xiao Ruoyan nodded, Xiaoyan smiled, and she touched Xiao Ruoyan's face with one hand: "Then do you know where the Huya senior sister Auntie mentioned is?"

Xiao Ruoyan: ...

shit.

she does not know.

What is the woman in her family going to do? Have you raised the AK47 to give her a chug?

Another long night.

Xiaoyan used her lips to tell Everlasting, she always has such good energy, Xiao Ruoyan always said that she seemed to have enough, but Xiaoyan smiled and said: "We have been separated for ten years, of course it will take such a long time. fill in the gaps little by little.”

Ten years of separation may separate a lot.

Someone once said that no matter how deep the feelings are, they can't match the butcher's knife of time.

It can be seen that Xiaoyan and Xiao Ruoyan are very tenacious little pigs. Not only did they escape from the knife, but they became stronger and stronger.

When preparing to have a child.

A grand meeting was held at home on both sides.

Both Xu Nian and Yan Zhiyi came, but this time, the elder sister also brought her family, brother-in-law Lan Lan.

Lan Lan has a good look and bought many gifts for Xu Nian. She held a teacup and smiled slightly: "Hi Auntie, I am my sister's girlfriend. We will be a family in the future."

Xu Nian looked at Lan Lan a little surprised and helpless, she smiled.

I still remember when I was in high school, several children would always run home.

At that time, she and Xiao He were very happy, because she had expected too much from Xiao Ruoyan since she was a child, and the requirements were perhaps too harsh, which made her taciturn.

But because of the children in dormitory 417, she is much warmer and often laughs.

Lanlan and Xiao Ruoyan are very good, and she is also very good at pleasing the elderly. Several times, Lanlan hugged Xu Nian coquettishly: "Auntie, auntie, your cooking is so delicious, I will be your daughter in the future OK?"

Xiaoyan glanced at Lanlan, without saying a word, twisted Xiao Ruoyan's butt, Xiao Ruoyan coughed, "What are you doing? Lanlan?"

Xu Nian couldn't stop laughing.

Among the few children, her family conditions are considered the most average, but every time she comes, for the sake of her daughter, Xu Nian will cook a lot of delicious food for them, and prepare all kinds of snacks, so she is the most popular.

Now, after so many years.

It was really pierced by Lanlan's words.

They really became a family.

Although her daughter didn't follow the path she had originally hoped for, at this moment, Xu Nianzhen's eye sockets were a little sore.

Xiaoyan and Xiao Ruoyan sat on the side holding hands, looking at a few people with a smile.

Xu Nian was the oldest, and she was the first to speak: "Although the two children are not young, there is no need to rush to have a child. We still need to go for a systematic physical examination first."

My sister also nodded, "I've made arrangements for the hospital."

Xiaoyan looked up at her, "Sister, I—"

"Shut up." Yan Zhiyi was very domineering, "You can do whatever you want before, but this time, listen to my sister."

She knew that her younger sister never wanted the idea of ​​"privilege", but why did she work so hard every day?

At this time, everyone should give their sister absolute love.

Xiao Ruoyan took Xiaoyan's hand, and wrote lightly on her hand. Xiaoyan was a little distracted, and the numb feeling spread along the palm of her body. She carefully distinguished, her eyes were red.

—We are going to have a baby.

They are going to have babies of their own.

Once upon a time, this was something unthinkable.

Now, with their insistence, they really got their wish and painted a little bit of a home.

The conversation went smoothly, but when it came to who was going to have the child, Xiao Ruoyan said, "Let me say something."

Everyone turned to look at her, and Xiaoyan also looked at her.

Xiao Ruoyan stroked Xiaoyan's hair, her voice was soft: "When I was young, due to various reasons, Xiaoyan's body was hurt."

Speaking of this, my sister's eyes dimmed, and her heart shrank a little. Lanlan held her hand and pursed her lips.

This was the darkest moment for the Yan family.

Although it has passed, Jian Zai can still feel the deep feeling.

"Mom, you once told me that a woman giving birth is like walking through the gate of hell. Let me do it this time."

She looked at Xiaoyan, and Xiaoyan pursed her lips: "But..."

Xiao Ruoyan held her hand, gentle and domineering: "Be obedient."

After all, it is the child of two people. Even the parents and elders have no way to participate in such a matter.

Xu Nian and Yan Zhiyi thought about it for the last time and they were all talking about them.

when returning home.

Xiao Ruoyan also followed Xiaoyan and said to her: "You see, from an objective and practical point of view, my body is more suitable. Let's not talk about anything else. I used to have better physical strength than you."

Xiaoyan didn't say a word.

She loves Xiao Ruoyan more than her own life.

Although she didn't speak, Xiao Ruoyan could feel the turmoil in her heart with her slightly cool palm. She put one arm around Xiaoyan's shoulder, and kissed her forehead lightly: "I have heard many things before. Yours, this matter, listen to me, okay?"

She can't lose Xiaoyan.

In the past, although she was not by Xiaoyan's side, just listening to her sister's words, the fear of loss spread all over the body cells along the skin and eventually spread to the heart, and she could hardly breathe due to the pain.

She knew what Xiaoyan was thinking, and she also knew that Xiaoyan was very true to her.

Xiao Ruoyan understands better that in fact, having a child is only due to the individual, and not everyone is in danger.

But even if it was a one in ten thousand danger, she didn't want Xiaoyan to go through it again.

What's more, she just stopped taking the medicine not long ago, and her body and mind are being adjusted. Xiao Ruoyan checked the information and said that a woman's physique will change a lot after giving birth. Along with hormone problems, there are many long-term problems psychological problems.

Xiao Ruoyan always thought that she was strong enough that she could bear it.

They both love each other more than their own lives.

Xiao Ruoyan tormented Xiaoyan on this matter for a long time, and finally convinced her.

Go to check the body that day.

Both families came, and everyone attached great importance to it, even Ruan Yihan and Mr. Qin also came.

President Qin and Ruan Yihan also thought about having children as they grew older, but they were delayed by various things. Before the inspection, they smiled and said that if Xiao Ruoyan and Xiaoyan go well this time, they will also Think about it.

Even Lan Lan took her sister's hand and said meanly: "Maybe we also consider it."

As soon as she finished speaking, she was blown away by Xiaoyan's blank stare.

Because my sister has arranged everything in advance.

Therefore, the inspection did not take long, and a series of inspections were completed in half a day, and the results came out very quickly.

The dean is an elderly and amiable old lady, and she personally received the two people.

She looked at the reports of the two people, and said with a smile: "On the whole, the bodies of both of you are not very suitable for having children."

Unexpected answer.

Both Xiao Ruoyan's and Xiaoyan's hearts tightened.

Xiaoyan, the dean said first, "Have you ever taken hormone drugs before? Several test results are not up to standard and need to be adjusted. As for Ms. Xiao." She sighed: "Your indicators are not up to standard. Not very good, did you not care about your body in the past? The palace cold is severe, there are heavy polycystic ovaries, and there is fluid in the uterus. I usually don’t feel uncomfortable in the stomach, especially before and after menstruation?”

Xiao Ruoyan's head was buzzing, she had felt uncomfortable, but after wandering outside for so many years, what did she rely on?It is life.

She left her hometown and was homeless, wasn't she just risking her life?

She does what others can't do.

She added classes that other people couldn't afford.

She gnawed on things that others couldn't gnaw on.

Now... her body gave back.

In the end, Xiao Ruoyan couldn't hear what the dean said, and she only looked at Xiaoyan's serious expression.

The dean is a very serious person, and she won't hide too much, telling the truth: "From the perspective of two people's bodies, Ms. Yan can do a little adjustment, and Ms. Xiao, you see, you are not only in gynecology, you Does your stomach often drink alcohol and eat irregularly? There are problems with the gastric mucosa. You will have to do a gastroscopy to check your heart. You can’t stay up late anymore. At such a young age, you have a little myocardial ischemia. If it goes on like this, the bracket..."

In the end, the dean looked at Xiao Ruoyan: "It's not that I'm scaring you, you're so young, that's it, it's been checked out, otherwise... Hey, the young people who are here don't know how to cherish their bodies... "

Obviously it is to ask the child to check.

But this time, the two of them were terrified.

Xiao Ruoyan's health was terrible.

When the two of them came out, their expressions were not very good.

Boss Qin and his sister were still laughing and chatting at first, but they shut up when they saw this, with serious expressions on their faces.

on the way back.

Xiaoyan has been comforting Xiao Ruoyan: "It's okay, Ah Yan, it will be a long time in the future, let's adjust slowly, don't worry."

Xiao Ruoyan's hands were icy cold, she was silent for a long time, looked at Xiaoyan and said quietly: "Xiaoyan, am I very useless?"

Xiaoyan held her hand tightly, shook her head with red eyes, "Don't say that."

Xiao Ruoyan looked forward and said softly, "I still want to protect you."

With her body, the dean said it politely, she is no different from a disabled person.

In this lifetime, energy is limited.

There are many people who are taken into consideration by Ah Yan.

Xiaoyan, parents, friends.

Only without herself.

She has always felt young, her body is good, she can resist, she can just grit her teeth when she commits a crime, and she doesn't even care about the frequent stomach pains and heart throbbing.

Now, at last, he has reaped the bitter fruit.

Xiaoyan held her hand tightly: "I want you to protect me."

She needs Ah Yan.

No one dared to tell Xu Nian about such a result.

She has been worrying about it for most of her life, and she is too old to let her worry anymore, so she just said perfunctorily that the doctor said that the two of them usually don't pay attention to maintenance, and their bodies need to be adjusted by taking traditional Chinese medicine.

As for this, Xu Nian was quite worried when he heard that, insisting on buying an old hen to make soup for the two of them to adjust their bodies, and also yelling that they should go to bed early and get up early, so they can stop tossing about.

Both Xiaoyan and Xiao Ruoyan were absent-minded in agreeing, and Xu Nian thought it was perfunctory and reprimanded them.

Ah Yan's condition has not been very good.

She is an easily preoccupied person.

In fact, she and Xiaoyan have considered death many times in the years since they separated.

She is not afraid of death.

It was because she was afraid that if she really left by herself, she would leave endless sorrow to her family, and her little face... they were just a little bit happier.

When she got home, Xiaoyan made some porridge for her, and Xiao Ruoyan was not in the mood to eat it. She smiled a little to reassure Xiaoyan, and finally said she was a little sleepy and went to bed.

Maybe it was affected by the daytime inspection, or maybe there were too many things on my mind.

Xiao Ruoyan was dreaming.

In the dream, she saw her grave, deep in her favorite rice field.

And she was in a soul-like floating state, standing aside and watching.

She watched relatives and friends cry, watched her parents wailing, looked at Xiaoyan who was kneeling in white clothes and weeping silently, looked at Xiaoyan looking into the distance, and said sadly: "Ayan, you promise Mine, have you forgotten..."

She woke up from the dream, touched it with her hand, and went to touch the bedside, but she didn't see Xiaoyan.

That dream was so real that Xiao Ruoyan could even see the name on the tombstone clearly. Her heart was beating violently, and the pain was throbbing. After a long time, she got up to look for Xiaoyan.

She knew that seeing Xiaoyan must be uncomfortable, but she didn't want her to see it.

Before Ah Yan went to bed.

Xiaoyan has been watching her from the side, she watched for a long time, tears kept falling.

On the way, she answered her sister's call, afraid of disturbing Xiao Ruoyan, she went to the next room to answer it.

On the phone, my sister comforted Xiaoyan cautiously: "It's okay, Xiaoyan, don't think too much. Seeing that medical care is so developed and technology is advancing, it will be fine if you adjust slowly. It's better to find out sooner than later. You ..." She bit her lip: "Are you okay?"

Xiaoyan didn't speak for a while, and after a long time, she said softly, "I'm fine, sister."

The ending sound was already choked up.

After hanging up the phone, Xiaoyan felt that she couldn't be idle, she needed to do something.

She took out Ah Yan's clothes, vests, jeans, and jackets that she had stolen before, and soaked them in a big basin.

She didn't want to cry.

But as we washed, and as we washed, there were more and more waves in the big basin.

In the end, Xiaoyan burst into tears. She cried, crying unbearably, and trembling uncontrollably.

After she and Ah Yan came back, Xiaoyan never cried like this again.

She didn't know what was wrong, she just wanted to cry, she just felt uncomfortable, and she wanted to cry whenever she saw anything.

She bit her lip tightly.

She told herself to be strong, and she also wanted to help Ah Yan adjust her body, she saw that she was her support.

Xiaoyan didn't cry until she was hugged and fell into the warm embrace behind her, and Ah Yan, who was holding her, also wept silently, Xiaoyan grabbed one of her arms and bit her lip: "Ayan... ..."

Xiao Ruoyan nodded, with tears on her cheeks.

Xiaoyan trembled: "You, can't you know something?"

Xiao Ruoyan nodded again.

she knows.

she knows……

Xiaoyan turned around and hugged her tightly.

Once, she thought that God was unfair and made her and Ah Yan go through so much.

She also once said that she would never ask God for anything.

It can be seen that now, what kind of child, what is the future, seeing her here, she just wants to ask for a lover to be safe.

She can't lose Ah Yan.

She wouldn't be able to survive that way.

The author has something to say: People will experience many storms in their life.

I hope everyone can take care of themselves, be responsible for themselves, their families and their lovers.

Seeing that 2020 is coming to an end, who are you going to spend New Year's Eve with today?

Ye Zi wishes everyone a happy new year in advance, 2021, let's be happy!